So I’m going to tell you what has been going on in my life, and why I haven’t been on lately. If you don’t care, don’t read this. Oh, and it’s gong to be really long, so just a warning.

So let me start out by giving you some background information…I have been depressed since a month before I turned 14. Now, this is a very long time, and it was basically moods going up and down frequently. Some days were better than others and some days were absolutely terrible, but all in all, I was depressed.

A lot of people have asked me “What do you have to be depressed about? Your life doesn’t seem that bad.” or “Your life isn’t nearly as bad as a lot of other people’s, why are you depressed?” Those people obviously have no idea what depression is and why so many people are depressed. You see, depression is a disease, an illness, anyone can get it, but it comes in to effect when certain events happen in one’s life that brings over-the-top sadness.

Their ignorance on this huge issue is no problem of mine, it just irks me when they compare me to others. You can’t compare someone’s reasons for depression to another, because humans are very different from each other. What may seem like a disaster for one person, may not to another…it all just depends on the person.

You may be thinking “But really, Genna, what terrible event could have caused you to be depressed for so long?” My answer to that question are mainly these two things: being sexually abused and having friends die. I will go more in to detail about these two things in a different post, I don’t really want to make this longer than it needs to be.

Anyways, being depressed for so long, I began to spiral down a very dark path. After continuously spiraling, I got to a point that I would have rather never gotten to, but unfortunately, it did. I attempted suicide a few weeks ago. I go to therapy, and my therapist knows I’m depressed, so it came out in the session with my parents. Then, I ended up in a mental hospital for a week. I was actually very thankful I went there, because I changed a lot, and my relationship with. And since I’ve been out, I’m a lot happier. I’m on medication, which doesn’t solve everything completely, but it helps A LOT.

So that’s basically what has happened and why I haven’t really been on. I plan on being on more since I’m feeling better, but we’ll see…hopefully I am.

Oh, and if you read this, thank you for reading, and hopefully caring. <3

(Source: iamshmeep)